Olly Murs breaks down in tears over Caroline Flack's death in emotional new clip from documentary
DEVASTATED Olly Murs broke down in tears talking about his friend Caroline Flack's tragic death in a new clip from a documentary on the late star.
The Voice judge, 36, is struggling to come to terms with Caroline's suicide one year on and said it will take him a long time to get over the hurt.
Speaking in the upcoming Channel 4 documentary Caroline Flack: Her Life and Death, a tearful Olly says: "I just know that my heart breaks every time I think of Caz and think of what she would've had to have gone through to take her own life and that's going to hurt for a long time because we got on so well – we were great together."
The pair can be seen smiling and singing in a car as a throwback video plays.
Caroline's TV presenter pal Natalie Pinkham, 43, then says: "She has gone, it's just horrible and you feel like saying 'come on you've made your point now, come back, we've all listened, we've heard and I'm sorry.'"
The emotional documentary, which will air on Wednesday night, features members of Caroline's family and celebrity friends reflecting on her life.
Pop star Olly also recalled the abuse Caroline received on social media during their spell hosting X Factor together in 2015.
He said: “The abuse that she was getting, it was awful. Those comments did affect her every day, those comments did hurt her.
“To think she took her own life the way she did, I just can’t fathom it. I can’t process that.”
A previous clip from the documentary revealed Caroline was “fascinated” by suicide and had a long history of taking overdoses when relationships collapsed.
Her twin sister Jody said the presenter, who died in her North London home last February aged 40, “found heartbreak impossible” and couldn’t cope with the intense pressure of fame.
She said: “With each serious boyfriend she sort of took a lot of tablets, drank alot and ended up in an A&E situation a lot of times.
"She really didn’t think she could cope with that feeling – it was her trying to control it.
“She was quite fascinated by the subject of suicide.
"I knew that about her so it was a worry for a long time. It was something I tried to get my head around for a long time.”
Jody recalls in the doc how close they were as children. She said: "Being twins is just a link and a bond which is quite rare, all the way along everything was the same. We played together all the time.
"When we were very young we used to sing at home and stuff. And I went along with it a bit, that was just the pecking order. She was a bit bossy.
She was Kylie out of Kylie and Jason. Yeah, I was always the boy."
Her mum, Christine, said: "It's difficult to think of all the things you remember about her – I think it was that she was funny, she just used to make us laugh."
Her sister also remembered one of her first loves when she was a teenager – an older boy who worked on the waltzers at a fair – which established a vicious cycle in the life of Caroline.
Jody said: “That was I guess the first time she got super upset when that didn’t work out.
"She was heartbroken, she ran away from home and we didn’t know where she was and she’d gone to his house and we were banging on his door and she really struggled emotionally, she was very depressed and then that pattern carried on forever. She really did find heartbreak impossible.”
Caroline’s mum, Christine, recalled a later relationship after she left home at 16 to attend drama school in Cambridge. When it ended Caroline, who died last February, took her first overdose.
She said: “It ended and then we got a call that she had taken some pills and she spent time in hospital and then you could tell that it wasn’t right, her reaction wasn’t right. She didn’t handle heartbreak well.
“We went through all the doctors and they said, ‘We think it was a one off’ but there was always that fear after then. You’re always worried about in case anything happened.”
The doc looks at how Caroline's rise to fame started with her spending all her time working hard to make her break in showbusiness.
She occasionally landed small acting roles on little-known shows, such as the2001 drama, Is Harry on the Boat, where she starred alongside EastEnders actor Danny Dyer. A clip of it is seen on the doc.
Her rise to fame coincided with the growth of Twitter and other sites, and she endured constant criticism throughout her career.
YOU’RE NOT ALONE
EVERY 90 minutes in the UK a life is lost to suicide.
It doesn't discriminate, touching the lives of people in every corner of society – from the homeless and unemployed to builders and doctors, reality stars and footballers.
It's the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, more deadly than cancer and car crashes.
And men are three times more likely to take their own life than women.
Yet it's rarely spoken of, a taboo that threatens to continue its deadly rampage unless we all stop and take notice, now.
That is why The Sun launched the You're Not Alone campaign.
The aim is that by sharing practical advice, raising awareness and breaking down the barriers people face when talking about their mental health, we can all do our bit to help save lives.
Let's all vow to ask for help when we need it, and listen out for others… You're Not Alone.
If you, or anyone you know, needs help dealing with mental health problems, the following organisations provide support:
- CALM, www.thecalmzone.net, 0800 585 858
- Heads Together, www.headstogether.org.uk
- Mind, www.mind.org.uk, 0300 123 3393
- Papyrus, www.papyrus-uk.org, 0800 068 41 41
- Samaritans, www.samaritans.org, 116 123
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